I just got back from walking the dog and whilst out, I got an anxiety attack. The irony is that I’m going out to beat the anxiety. It’s not the first time this has happened to me either.
I can feel the attack coming on – just by the way I’m behaving. I get really irritable, don’t have ANY patience (and anyone that knows me, knows that I’m not the most patient person lol) and my thoughts just spiral out of control.
It’s coming up to the end of the month, so worries about money, my dad’s anniversary and my mum cutting all contact with me last week really doesn’t help the situation. There are a lot of thoughts going on in my head. A lot of worries.
I really don’t like the person I become when I’m anxious.
I know I’m the only one who can change this. And I’m working on it.
When I’m in the moment of having an anxiety attack, I list things in my head I’m grateful for. That tends to focus me on the here and now and that despite my worries my life isn’t bad by any means.
Another thing I sometimes do is start saying (in my head) things I see around me. Again, this helps to bring me back to the present moment.
I’ve recently changed my morning routine, so I now practice yoga and meditation every morning. The movement is great for my body, as it’s releasing any stored emotions. But also, it is releasing stored emotions. It almost feels like I’m going round in circles.
“Ongoing nervousness and anxiety create a cycle of tension in the body, so that you are also likely to suffer from muscle tension, stiffness, eating disorders, heart palpitation, rapid breathing patterns, excessive sweating, and headaches. Learning how to relax and breathe more deeply is essential.” – ‘Your body speaks your mind by Deb Shapiro
I do understand as I’m releasing the emotions in my body, more things will come up for me and I may have more anxiety attacks. But I also know that this is part of the journey. Writing this right now, I’m making a conscious effort to relax my muscles to release some of the tension.
No matter where you are right now or what you are doing, release your shoulders away from your ears, soften through the jaw and release your tongue from the roof of your mouth! Take a deep breath!
Do you notice the difference? Whenever you feel tension, just do that! It’s a little miracle worker for me.
As I’m dealing with the Anxiety, the root causes and the symptoms of anxiety, things will come up and I may fall back into anxiety more often than I’d like to, but that is part of the healing process.
I may not be able to heal myself from Anxiety, but through yoga, meditation and self-enquiry I’m learning the tools to get better and deal with anxiety if it comes up again.
This is a journey and like so many things in life, it takes time. So if you are on this journey with me, don’t give up. Take one day at a time, stay in the present moment and come from a place of love.